ahh, this feels more tumblr*ish...my quest this mornin' was to find the best name for the day. my first thought was flowers, my 2nd thought was backup right before the beginning of a perceived chaos(napi) the name spilled out from the big U, top of the list for top o' the mornin'.
EmilY ~ she alone makes me Laugh.the choices to follow were:
and live right
than to be a stupid liar.
2Willingness and stupidity
don't go well together.
If you are too eager,
you will miss the road.
3We are ruined
by our own stupidity,
though we blame the LORD.
4The rich have many friends;
the poor have none.
5Dishonest witnesses and liars
won't escape punishment.
6Everyone tries to be friends
of those who can help them.
7If you are poor,
your own relatives reject you,
and your friends are worse.
When you really need them,
they are not there.
8Do yourself a favor
by having good sense--
you will be glad you did.
9Dishonest witnesses and liars
will be destroyed.
10It isn't right for a fool
to live in luxury
or for a slave to rule
in place of a king.
11It's wise to be patient
and show what you are like
by forgiving others.
12An angry king roars
like a lion,
but when a king is pleased,
it's like dew on the crops.
13A foolish son brings disgrace
to his father.
A nagging wife goes on and on
like the drip, drip, drip
of the rain.
14You may inherit all you own
from your parents,
but a sensible wife
is a gift from the LORD.
15If you are lazy
and sleep your time away,
you will starve.
16Obey the Lord's teachings
and you will live--
disobey and you will die.
17Caring for the poor
is lending to the LORD,
and you will be well repaid.
18Correct your children
before it's too late;
if you don't punish them,
you are destroying them.
19People with bad tempers
are always in trouble,
and they need help
over and over again.
20Pay attention to advice
and accept correction,
so you can live sensibly.
21We may make a lot of plans,
but the LORD will do
what he has decided.
22What matters most is loyalty.
It's better to be poor
than to be a liar.
23Showing respect to the LORD
brings true life--
if you do it, you can relax
without fear of danger.
24Some people are too lazy
to lift a hand
to feed themselves.
25Stupid fools learn good sense
by seeing others punished;
a sensible person learns
by being corrected.
26Children who bring disgrace
rob their father
and chase their mother away.
27If you stop learning,
you will forget
what you already know.
28A lying witness makes fun
of the court system,
and criminals think crime
is really delicious.
29Every stupid fool
is just waiting
to be punished.
okay so this past week has proved to be very spicy. i was told that emily deserved the lightning bolt she got because she exclaimed that she wanted to run off with charlie pride in her younger years. so then i had someone buy me glasses so i could see better. (pun intended). then i bought a naughty french maid outfit to do the naughtier in the bedroom built for queen yet only holds a princess & her lord. and last night, well really early this morning as i was drifting off to sleep, i said my prayer to God. the heavenly father whom i believe loves all his creatures - red and yellow - black and white, they are precious in his sight! and i asked to be shown me all the stuff lately and not so lately that nazi has been trying to teach me about my God that i just am having a hard time believing. stuff about God not loving the blacks, the jews, the homosexuals, the stuff about having the right to judge others because they are satans followers and trying to destroy me and the God I believe in. And so then this morning... he started telling me about flouride and chloride and ine's and coliseums and elephants and lions and asked where this hx came from and he told me nothing except that he wasn't gonna tell me and basically we could agree to disagree and keep having our relationship. i told him, who wants a relationship where you cant talk about everything. here i am. and now we are going to church! go figure!
in a new place, a new town, new credentials and the possibility of the Love of a Lifetime - doesn't seem all that bad. but to a self professed lonely agoraphobic gypsy soul; it is the biggest thing I have ever done by myself. years ago I moved a lot and even as I got older and had kids, I still moved more than I ever allowed myself to become settled - but then, i did it with tagalongs of some flavor. now, it is just me! yes, there is the promise of Love that spans greater than i could ever imagine - but letting go of the only stability that I have had a hold of in the last 8 months hurts pieces inside me that i didnt even know existed. it is a struggle of good vs evil, God vs everything but God, God vs myself, and Love vs impatience.